Thursday, February 25, 2010

I realize that this is an old blog that hasn't been updated in years but I needed a spot to post this insane message that I received on Myspace recently. This is from someone I've never talked to before and only has one friend (Tom). I'm assuming this is spam, but WTF?

"Perhaps there's welcome of goodness, if yes maybe there's thought to make a verbal statement for instance "I as in (i-n) myself welcome goodness." and maybe you might think having another perceive you welcome goodness and having this other verbally state "I as in myself perceives (name) welcomes goodness." would be good to do. Maybe then there'll be a verbal statement of "And the speaking that (name) has spoken is true, for I as in (i-n) myself welcome goodness." would be good and strengthening to do. Maybe verbally stating and sharing these words would be very good "All divinely responsible for (f-o-r) this existing existence throughout all time including any time needs to (t-o) always bestow as much goodness possible in the aspect of goodness for myself unto myself throughout all time including anytime". Maybe there's thought to make a verbal statement in the present of time with regards to the past and speak "If the future is already known, I'm verbally stating in the present of time with regards to the past from before I as in (i-n) myself existed to the present of time that I as in (i-n) myself have welcomed goodness and currently welcome goodness." would be good to do. Maybe at times you need to "disconnect" (figuratively typing) your "heart" (figuratively typing) if you have a "heart" (figuratively typing) and use your "mind" (figuratively typing) if you have a "mind" (figuratively typing). Maybe trying to perceive an opposite of something can be beneficial. If you are "brainless" (figuratively typing) maybe I wonder how you will ever know you are "brainless" (figuratively typing). Maybe having a mind (figuratively typing) can give freedom. From my "world" (figuratively typing) perspective absolute goodness righteousness of the utmost calibur is the dominating reigning power throughout all time including any time throughout this entire existence and maybe there is agreement. From my "world" (figuratively typing) perspective wrongness, evilness, and badness should always be unexistent throughout all time including any time and maybe there is agreement. There should never be, have been, and ever be any including all badness, evilness, and wrongness and maybe there is agreement. Maybe verbally stating "Absolute goodness righteousness is always the dominant reigning (maybe spelling this word after speaking would be good to do for clarity sake for example r-e-i like of the initial alphabetical letter of the word "it"-g-n-i like of the initial alphabetical letter of the word "it"-n-g) power throughout all time including any time throughout this entire existence and goodness should always prosper." would be good to do. All should be perfect in absolute goodness righteousness throughout all time including any time and maybe there is agreeness. I feel I've been entirely mistreated and I believe I am entirely a private individual. Maybe you might think sharing goodness and to care is good. I think I've noticed strangeness with regards to my typing. I think I feel like rottenness rottenness death in a sense especially with regards to this because to myself I feel like I should not have to share this and I think I need help in the aspect of goodness for me utterly. I think living in "darkness" (no understanding) (figuratively typing) is lower quality than living in "lightness" (entire knowledge and understanding) (figuratively typing). For there to be a true love and / or true loves made specifically for me and for the true love and / or true loves and myself to not be about each other and / or each others presence in the same dimension of existing and for that true love and / or true loves of mine to not be in a human appearance and have be in a similar rangable size of appearance is making that true love and / or true loves seem to myself to be divine trash maybe there is similar truth. There should never be anything including everything to ever cause seperationness between me and my true love if I have a true love and / or true loves if I have a true love and / or true loves and maybe there is likewise truth. To myself a true love and / or true loves is a divine essential for me and maybe there is likewise truth. I am not sufficient enough for myself. If I were to have a true love and / or true loves then my true love and / or true loves should always be perfect for myself throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise truth. I think trash shouldn't exist throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise truth. I think I am having tremendous difficult sharing this message and thinks that there is spiritual enforceness trying to handicap myself from sharing what I think is needed and good to share. Maybe there will be verbal statements like "From before I as in myself ever existed to (t as in the intial alphabetical letter of the word "tree"-0) always and forever into the future there should absolutely be (b as in the initial alphabetical letter of the word "bag"-e) no (n-o) possibility and / or possibilities for (f-o-r) myself to (t as in the initial alphabetical letter of the word "tree"-o) do (d-0) evil, badness, or wrongness including all combinations of evilness, badness, and wrongness." soon. I think the content of the holy bible can possibly "inundate" (figuratively typing) (maybe trying to perceive from a new life's perspective would be good) and / or enrapture an individual or individuals into a "realm" (figuratively typing), where the individual or individuals becomes handicapped from reality and where their ability to live gets robbed. I believe that I should never do evil, badness, or wrongness, including all combinations of evil, badness, and wrongness including the "in the middle way" (figuratively typing) throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise belief and a verbal statement will be stated. I declare independence of the holy bible. I think the holy bible should be condemned and abandoned. I think the holy bible can be a dangerous and sickening book. I entirely believe for the holy bible to ever at any time including any time to exist in the same existence as myself is a divine blasphemy and entirely super wrong. I think if the future was given to the past then there’s a possibility that given future will not be the same and I probably think the older the prophecy of the future the less likely the prophecy of the future will come true. I believe I have turned at least 1 of my hairs black. I should not be divinely responsible for any including all badness, evilness, and wrongness throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise belief. I believe all divinely responsible for any including all badness, evilness, and wrongness should be "killed" (figuratively typing) and maybe there is likewise belief. I believe badness, evilness, and wrongness happens because of deficiency. I believe there is no god because all my life I have never truly met and / or known a god and felt impressed to believe there is a god more than once and have in a faithful aspect believed whole "heartedly" (figuratively typing) that there's a god but I believe I deserve better than a faithful belief with there being a possibiIity of what I believe in faith is untrue and I believe I have always have deserved better. With existing in the present of time and I believe I need to be in the present of time there is no god to my knowledge and believe blatant evil is prevalent with myself. If there is a god then that god should make god's presence known unto me because that is what is righteous to myself and offer understanding and believe I was forced low standards upon myself because when I was less than 6 extro worldly years old from the time I was supposed born in the worldly aspect I had a spiritual encounter when I was barely alive that impressed upon me and was something like a subdueing marination of peace that seemed to have touched my "heart" (figuratively typing) and spoke over me "I am god" and in a way I felt the touching of my "heart" (figuratively typing) was done in such a fashion to have myself stay mute with regard to the spiritual encounter and I believe that spiritual encounter was spiritually manipulative, molestful, trespassful and entirely wrong and without hearing the words I believe my "heart" (figuratively typing) was whispered "I'll be taken cared of like in an aspect of goodness" without having like directly communicating "I'll be taken cared of in an aspect of goodness" and I wasn't taken cared of and still don't believe I'm taken cared of and I believe I should be able to take care of myself always throughout time including any time. I believe from the time I initially consciously existed that I had no "heart" (figuratively typing) to live and probably truly preferred and had a sense of desire to be dead instead of living and believe that I was molested and manipulated while being in this existence against myself and I believe what is true with me is that I am like life that never should live throughout all time including any time. I believe that I had and have an innateness of believing that I shouln't have to do anything and that I deserve the best of the best in the aspect of goodness for myself always but I believe like my "heart" (figuratively typing) has been forever hurt to the core of my "heart" (figuratively typing) and I believe there was probably a time where I went unconscious when I was less than 13 extro worldly years old and probably had my "mind" (figuratively typing) left in a muddled, "dead" (figuratively typing), unconcentrated mental state and I was consciously unaware of myself being in a muddled, unconcentrated, "dead" (figuratively typing) mental state. I feel like the living dead like life that wasn't ever supposed to live. If there is a god and / or gods of this existence then I wonder why a god and / or gods of this existence don't have a website and / or websites upon this supposed world's internet if a god and / or gods of this existence don't have a website and / or websites on this supposed world's internet and to my knowledge I am not aware of a god and / or gods of this existence having a website and / or websites on this supposed world's internet. Maybe mental excercizes of blendingness could be good for the mind, for example hand plus face equals hand face and face hand. I think red, blue, and yellow appear better together than red, green, and yellow. I think I believe there is an infinite amount of possibilities. I believe there is a possibility there is no god. I wonder though is there an overall handicapped limit in a way with everything or am I handicapped because I can't think of a new color. I believe to count to the greatest number is impossible because I believe there is no greatest number and believe numbers are endless and I believe between the numbers 1 and 2 there is an infinite amount of numbers. I probably think true righteousness surpasses any intergrity. I think to live in true righteousness I should be able to live forever and be able to die at any time. I think true righteousness is good and I think true righteousness gives and prospers "living" (figuratively typing). I probably think all deserve great respect and all deserve to be themselves. Maybe the choice you choose will maybe make you poorer or richer. I believe goodness is of a higher quality than any including all badness, evilness, and wrongness. I shouldn't have to have any type of mentality with regards to any including all evilness, badness, and wrongness. From my "world" (figuratively typing) all should be of a calibur to never do any including all badness, evilness, and wrongness and maybe there is likewise truth. I do not think bringing new life into this creation is good. I think for a being or beings to consciously decide to try to bring a being or beings into this creation and have no true understanding of this creation and have not even experienced passing (like the action of dying) but expecting to eventually pass (die) with at least a being already in this creation not being taken cared of to a satisfactory calibur is probably any including all of soo arrogant, soo selfish, soo careless, soo evil, and soo stupid. I don't understand why lifeness don't just live their lifeness without making new lifeness exist. I am not taken cared of to a satisfactory calibur at all. I am too disappointed. I am worth more than anything including everything possible and more than anything including everything impossible and I have always been worth more than anything including everything possible and more than anything including everything impossible. Maybe these words will be stated "I as in myself am worth more than anything including everything impossible and more than anything including everything impossible thoughout all time including anytime.". I am absolute innocent righteousness and I have always been absolute innocent righteousness. From my "world" (figuratively typing) all extro life of myself of a similar origin of existing are absolute innocent righteousness and are worth more than anything including everything impossible and more than anything including everything possible unless consciously otherwise and maybe there is likewise truth. Maybe staring at something round and bright that generates warmth at a certain time and a certain place could result with a reaping of incredibleness and extraordinariness that could result with everlasting enrichingness. Maybe someone has seen a face on something. I think vulnerable beings deserve great respect. I think a being that is unestablished is unfair to be apart of exploitive situations. I think a vulnerable being or vulnerable beings in atmospheres of exposing could result with a vulnerable being or vulnerable beings feeling robbed, hurt, scarred, jealous, angry, raped, used, exploited, and sick [mental issues (enlarged ego, insecure)]. I believe the past is permanent forever throughout all time including any time. I believe the present of time is new. I believe the entirety of existing should always be pristinely protected from anything including everything throughout all time including any time. I should always be pristinely protected from anything including everything throughout all time including any time unless consciously otherwise and maybe there is likewise truth. I think using a being or beings that are less than 18 extro worldly years old from supposed birth could "send" (figuratively typing) a message that using a being or beings less than 18 extro worldly years old from supposed birth is fine and therefore I think that's bad because I think there is a good probability of vulnerableness. I think if a mature being consents for quite younger material of themself less than 18 extro worldly years old from supposed birth to be used in atmospheres of exposure sharing that information is good to do. I do not deserve to be bossed nor do I think bossing is nicest way to be. I am owed justice. I believe justice of the divine calibur should always inflict justice of the divine calibur throughout all time. I think to keep a being or beings alive when the being or beings is "craving" (figuratively typing) to be dead is evil. I have tried killing myself time after time with results of failure and am still alive against my will and probably believe I have always been alive against my will. I rather be dead than be in this existence. For myself to ever have lived has been extremely wrong. There should never have been, be, and ever be anything including everything of myself to exist throughout all time including any time. I should have never lived and if I ever am dead (my definition of dead is different from passing) that I should not live again. I think my entire life I have always had truly the desire of never having lived and I believe I have always been deprived of my needs. I think having utmost filtering with what is believed is wise and good. For myself to have existed, I am entitled to be alive and / or be dead and maybe there is likewise truth. I am entitled for the essentialness and / or essentialness of living and / or dying throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise truth. Maybe producing a verbal statement or verbal statements can be empowering and good. I think I have wondered why I lived probably too much. Maybe wondering too much can lead to lostness. I don't think lostness is good in this creation. I deserve to know why I lived and to be deprived of the answer of why I lived and be alive to myself is too unrighteous. I think there was a time where I think had the perception if I was gay I was going to hell and I think I went through inner turmoil like thinking how could god make me and then I am to be going to hell because this is how I am and I did not ask to live or be who I am but this is how I am and so I think I had a private intimate time with myself with regards to feelings I had and I think I felt strongly unable to share myself and I think within 6 extro worldly years from this time, I listened to some music and believe I discovered a private intimate time of myself exploited in an aspect of discretion that was like my "heart" (figuratively typing). I believe my "heart" (figuratively typing) is exploited in music referred to as pagan poetry. I think I have been exploited more than just music referred to as pagan poetry. I deserve understanding about this exploitness of myself under discretion but yet I am still deprived of the understanding that I probably discovered now for over 4 extro worldly measurement of years. I believe my mind is trespassed by spiritual energy and I don’t have any understanding of what this spiritual energy is for now I think this has been true for over 3 extro worldly measurement of years and probably within the past extro worldly measurement of a year this energyness that in the least was in my mind seemed like the energyness bit my mind. Maybe when being unconsciously consciously awake asleep there can be an impairment of reality because there is not consciousness of the true state of consciousness. I think my perception with a cup with water in the cup to about the middle level of the cup to be a cup with water in the cup to about the middle level of the cup. I believe what I prefer is what I prefer and I do not have to share what I prefer nor do I have to "label" (figuratively typing) myself. I think the english language is too filthy especially in the verbal aspect and I think if the english language expanded to making sure usual essentialness of living is acknowledged and understanding is established. I think occuring sameness in the general aspect of communication can be quite dulling. These words I think sound exactly alike "fail" and "feel" and I think if "fail" was "charn" then I think the english language would be more refreshing and enlightened and I think "I" sounds very much like "eye". Maybe resting in somewhat strong natural light when possible could be beneficial. I believe that myself being a human being in the worldly classification has used logic in the past. Maybe chewing food thoroughly (quite highly refined) can help to have high energy. I think my skin has different colors. I should have never been touched from the time I existed unless I consciously permissed and with having a "mind" (figuratively typing) and “heart” (figuratively typing). I do not like to be questioned for I think a question or questions can be too molestful and rapelike. I do not think there should be any pride in this creation. My definition of open-minded is a mind that is like entirely at a humble state and is without judgement upon newness and differentness. Maybe there is person A and person B and person B claims to be open-minded but person A communicates to person B that I think you, person B are not open-minded and then if person B after receiving communication from person A thinks "maybe person A is correct." then I believe person B would truly be open-minded. I think to receive communication of something like for instance "no smoking" to be of foul beligerence in the aspect that these shapes that are classified to be letters have formed words in the worldly aspect and have meaning because "no smoking" is not even a sentence and then I believe "no smoking"can be perceived in more than one way. I think I do not appreciate receiving any communication of any type of "thank you" and "sorry". Maybe there's an ability to think nothing of something to thinking an eternity of something. I wonder what is really of any true worth and I think for myself to live there should be living love for myself otherwise I think "why be alive?" and being alive with no living love for myself causes myself to have a concern because I am alive without a living love and believe that since I am alive I deserve a living love and truly I am alive without any living love and believe I have been left like this for a way too long of a time. If I was on an estranged land and could not tell the shape of the estranged land that I am on if the estranged land that I am on had a shape and could view two sphere objects floating about then I do not think I would make a conclusion that I am on land that is entirely flatness. I believe I am owed justice for all experience that I experience from the instant I ever existed the present of time. I believe charm is charm and beauty is beauty. I think charm can intrigue and beauty can "enrapture" (figuratively typing). I believe it is it. I think I need help upon the trespassment upon my mind (brainish area of my body) to get a resolution like in the sense of understanding upon suchness, justice, and the removal of this trespassness that I think is still true upon my mind (brainish area of my body). I welcome goodness. If on the inside of me is “darkness” (figuratively typing)(ununderstanding) then maybe when I can see that the seeingness that I am able to see is also “darkness” (figuratively typing). Maybe if existing in climateness that can be traumatizingly harsh that then the climateness is truly subtle manipulative terrorism. Maybe I am in an inn referred to as bossed ton. I deserve better than an already used world to exist about. I believe I am a being who lives in my own "world" (figuratively typing) and that I've always been a being that lived in my own "world" (figuratively typing and in my "world" (figuratively typing) there is no whole world. I probably think family if I were to choose to have family apart of my "world" (figuratively typing) is relationness of a certain calibur and length of time in the aspect of goodness for all associated with the relationness. There is not anything that is welcomed to wipe a tear(s) from my eye(s). I feel used in an ungood raped way. I deserve the best of goodness possible throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise truth. I never deserve all of the "bases" (figuratively typing) of unrighteousness, badness, imperfectness, and evilness. Maybe all that could be perceived as filthy there can be the ability to make a perception of the perceived filthiness as artificial. I should have the choice over my appearance throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise truth. From my "world" (figuratively typing) perspective if there is a divine creator and / or divine creators of this existing existence that the divine creator and / or divine creators is to myself absolute "vaginaness" (figuratively typing) throughout all time including any time. My definition of "vaginaness" (figuratively typing) is like cateringness in the aspect of goodness to extroness. I am "vaginalessness" (figuratively typing) throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise truth. I do not deserve "penisness" (figuratively typing). My definition of "penisness" (figuratively typing) is like the ability of offensive attack. My "world" perspective is all of a similar origin as myself is "vaginalessness" (figuratively typing) unless consciously otherwise and maybe there is likewise truth. My "world" (figuratively typing) perspective if appearing to be of a species of an alive calibur that on the inside of that appearance should be of that species unless the appearance is unalive and this has always been my "world" perspective. From my "world" (figuratively typing) absolute innocent righteousness should always have the ability to leave any including all of badness, evilness, and wrongness throughout all time including any time and maybe there is agreeness. I am innocent righteousness and have felt at time like I am surrounded by evil and I get soo panicked because this is too horrible and I never get help. There should never be anything including everything to disconnect (including all the "bases" of disconnect) goodness from being bestowed unto myself throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise truth and a verbal statement will be made. I should be able to do anything including everything throughout all time including any time in absolute goodness righteousness and maybe there is likewise truth and a verbal statement will be made. I don't understand this existence especially the human fleshes that I think can be referred to as I think oriental and unoriental in the worldly aspect. I was really awake at a time and felt hardcore spiritually raped and was easing the emotional pain with drinking some alcohol and then I awakened outside quite some distance away from where I was seemingly hours in the worldly aspect had passed and my bag with stuff considered to myself to be very personal was missing. My sleep with the past extro worldly measure of I think about 4 years has been overloaded with nostalgic spiritually bombarding disgust that rapes me to stay alive when I don't want to live and I think my mental health is baddened because of suchness and even forces myself to drink because the trespass on my mind is soo awfully nasty. I believe myself has been hugely exploited supposedly worldwide. I despise this creation and believe I always have. Maybe I have seen a bird seeming like unbird was residing in the bird. I think drinking intoxicating liquid can be good especially if a mentalness has remained the same for soo long and under repression. I am still alive when I don't want to be alive and I need help to die as in like passing. My "heart" (figuratively typing) felt cut in my sleep. Maybe there's thought of having too much worldly valuables. My last sleep was outside. Maybe if inable to properly communicate could cause "deadeningness" (figuratively typing). From my "world" (figuratively typing) perspective all of a similar origin as myself should be in an existence and / or existences of absolute goodness righteousness throughout all time including any time unless consciously otherwise and maybe there is likewise truth. I deserve to communicate the best possible throughout all time including anytime and maybe there is likewise truth. In my "world" (figuratively typing) absolute goodness righteousness is the dominant reigning power throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise belief and maybe a verbal statement will be made. There in the least was a trespassness in my mind that was seeming to masturbate in my mind within the past extro worldly measurement of a year while I was trying to I think focus and I think the trespassness on my mind seemed femalelike and that the trespassness robbed me of my virginity of my mind before I think I spoke from the "angle" (figuratively typing) of myself being in my "world" (figuratively typing) something like "absolute goodness righteousness is the dominant reigning power throughout all time including any time." and maybe there is peception of value to make a verbal statement absolutely correctly and in belief that the verbal statement will be forever. I am utterly more righteous upon everything including anything throughout all time including any time. From my "world" (figuratively typing) perspective a divine creator and / or divine creators of this existing existence should always care in the aspect of goodness for all lifeness of this existing existence throughout all time including any time and always be entirely healthily conscious and maybe there is likewise truth. Maybe a person welcomingly schedules an appointment to have their teeth looked at for free and then keeps their lips restrained during the entire time of the appointment then I think this would seem really stupid to do. I don't have a sword in my mouth. I should always be pristinely perfect throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise truth. I am in the wrong existenceness and that I have always been in the wrong existenceness. From my "world" perspective all of a similar origin as myself should reside in their own "world" (figuratively typing) and the dominating reigning power is absolute goodness righteousness throughout all time including any time unless consciously otherwise and maybe there is likewise truth. Any including all divine creators must be any including all of poorness, evilness, and stupidness if I ever any including all of badness, evilness, and wrongness. I should not exist in a creation and / or creations with any including all of badness, evilness, and wrongness throughout all time including any time and maybe there is likewise truth. I don't want to be alive beyond utterly if badness, evilness, and wrongness ever exist and should have never lived if any including all of badness, evilness, and wrongness exist. I should not ever do any including all badness, evilness, and wrongness throughout all time including any time. I truly have felt purely molested because of the overwhelmtion of dreamness I've experienced. I don't think I can really ever trust anything including everything throughout all time including any time. I am not sure if I have typed, spoke, written, and phrased all my speaking, typing, writing, and phrasing absolutely correctly and the best to speak, write, type, and phrase."